it's interesting because uhhhhh Aries has a very different perspective on
suicide than Chuuya does in a lot of ways. because he hasn't seen it first
hand and his personal experiences with haruto are honestly all pretty
sympathetic. Chuuya took a LONG TIME if he EVER learned that Dazai was
scared of things, whereas Aries has basically figured out that Haruto is
twitchy and nervous, even if he hasn't grasped the full extent of it.
Haruto very cleanly falls into 'a weaker person I want to protect' category
but like. he's not sure how to protect someone from themselves (tho u can
bet he's instantly starting to think about it) and he doesn't have aaaaaa
idealistic view of life suggests no one should die/suicide isn't legit but
he still deffo doesn't really understand it beyond 'yeah i mean i guess I
don't have enough self worth to make a strong argument for why life is
fundementally better than death if you don't enjoy being alive and you
aren't loyal to anything' so it's really just a strong selfish impulse to
not lose something important to him.
HE… is just like yeah that seems right. In imeeji he’s been depressed / unhappy feeling even though ‘nothing bad’ happened. He’s felt that schism in himself, that void, that inability to really understand people and that. well. terror. existential terror. anxiety terror. fear and scared and so forth and so on.
So. Of course.
HOW DOES ARIES FEEL ABT THE SEX, or the idea of sex with haruto or the lying during sex or
hE FELT SUPER BAD ABOUT THE FIRST SEX but he also kind of got over it tho
he will have a residual paranoia about haruto not getting off for a while
probably
second sex is going well and he feels positive. if he is given the
opportunity to handle something and improve he gets over it and forgives it
really genuinely so the fact that they had a rough patch doesn't matter to
him much.
anwyay overall he feels positive and enjoys feeling sex out with haruto and
also feels a little awk about how awk he feels about what probably
shouldn't be so awk except that he cna't remember it ever not being awk
how does haruto feel about wanting to be topped by aries
IT DOES MAKE HIM UNCOMFORTABLE BC IT'S GIVING UP CONTROL AND HE'S LIKE AH
AHA HA AH nnnaaahhhh but also like. in their 'canon' he trusts Chuuya. Part
of why he's gotten further too is bc of how the AU went differently and
while he cant even call his boyfriend for a date he does trust him.
so this is like HE DOESNT TRUST ARIES but the only way to gain trust is to
keep trying things where he doesnt trust and they dont turn out bad tbh lol
and
he likes it
but he feels unsafe and is unsure how to navigate his own wants and desires
and fingerguns
how do you think aries would feel abt feeling haruto's emotions
immmmmmmmm not sure. I have been thinking about it a lot but i don't think
he'd like... mind..... CHUUYA has a lot of expectations of people in action
and he does expect a certain shared under standing but not so much with
'you must be X type of person'. He expects like an understanding of loyalty
but not necessarily loyalty to HIM or something. So his default is pretty
low with expectations, and Aries' are even lower because he has noticed and
HEARD that like. Haruto and Whisky don't understand or care about team and
he's started to wonder if he isn't the weird one. as a result.
So he doesn't have this idea of 'what an unbroken person' is or 'how people
should be'. he mostly thinks relationships have very important guidelines
and it bothers him when they aren't understood. but it doesn't really
bother him if like. you aren't nice or you don't have empathy or whatever.
he'd probably find Haruto hating himself troubling but difficult to
understand. overall I don't think he'd really judge and he doesn't have
really anything to base expectations on other than himself but he already
knows he and Haruto are different so...? ? ?
tldr he's been around 'broken' people his entire life and has never seen
anything really THAT wrong with it (and he's definitely also broke in his
own way so lol)
does haruto want to emotion bond with aries at all
he doesnt want to bond with aries bc he's afraid of rejection and aries not
liking that he's 'broken' but he's also afraid of what he might see in
aries's feelings
dazai still self-harms and tries to kill himself on and off but it's way
less than our other au and sometimes instead he just does crime , so it's
fine
dazai mostly dresses in suits but he has some casual clothes which are
funny bc he just isn't sure how to dress so there's like always some
mismatchedness to it bc he isnt sure how expensive or cheap he should be
when not wearing a suit
dazai's better at fighting than he is in canon / our other au but he still
basically is like. mediocre at best.
he likes... frapps.... from sbux,,
At first he was real annoyed about it, and also weirdly flattered. But
after a few years he's chilled out and goes along with it and has fun. I
imagine he uhhh... sort of unofficially is a mafia liaison, and thus gets
some leeway in how he deals with them. He probably really does seriously
try to limit HOW bad Dazai is, but then ther eis the question of how much
of that is Dazai setting up a game for Chuuya to win, and Chuuya probably
doesn't know the answer to that question tbqh.
But overall fIRST HE WAS OFFENDED but i imagine as Dazai has gotten better,
the whole thing has gotten better and he does love him so???
hOW DOES HARUTO FEEL ABOUT WHAT JUST HAPPENED WITH WHISKEY
The triple thingy actually works in our AU where the mafia and government
and ada checks and balances and help make the city a better place ,
Ihhhhh overall he’s ok with it. He mostly keptcontrol and in general found
out some about how far whisky will go. He feels it was profitable and while
whisky got a moment of ‘winning’ he considers it pretty negligible over
all. It was a feelsbad but everything has a feelsbad side to it so shrug
whatever
... how... would Aries feel ... if he knew .,,, abt whisky and harutobeing
themselves
mostly confused and probably upset. he doesn't really have a good handle on
like... why... or how... they are themselves... he knows it's 'bad' but
would have a hard time articulating his bad feels about it. he'd rather
haruto not have sex he doesn't like, but couldn't say why that is
important. But this is a version of Chuuya who hasn't had a lot of bad sex,
so without the years of him and dazai bad decision abusing each other it's
just like 'ACTUALLY . I DISLIKE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS' in regards to.
dazai's bad decision sex.
he'd also just be even more distressed about how maybe team has no real
meaning and he's wrong
Aries is his most important person hands down. He’s trying his best?? But
feels like it isn’t enough and also even though Aries is like you being
broken whatever don’t listen to hiryuu he views Aries as like ... naive.
And someone to be protected. His pure adorable sheep who believes in ideals
that don’t exist. As he gains more memories abt Chuuya that prolly won’t
change. He probably has a certain amount of that feeling in their au too —
bc Chuuya can be good and workdor the government (even tho Dazai hates them
bc they let odasaku die , ) and Dazai himself does the dirty work in the
mafia.
Would Aries like a literal octopus give him a hand job
I assume what happened is that Mori basically sold Chuuya out to someone
who genuinely wanted revenge for someone Chuuya killed back when and
technically Mori was in no way connected, it was just a personal vendetta
which is why Chuuya was tortured but not for information he wouldn't have
since he's really just a college student.
So he felt bad because torture was bad bad but it probably took a while to
find out it was Mori, i imagine not until after dazai resolved it so it
kind of depends on what went on there
i hadn’t really thought about it much but now im just like, after odasaku died and dazai went back to the mafia he probably cut contact with chuuya for a while but then started popping up in his life again and honestly, spent far more time with him than he should have considering. the port mafia’s demon prodigy hanging out with chuuya at college, colluding with the enemy and all and probably he couldn’t keep his mouth shut. he wasn’t the same kind of lovey dovey as he was with odasaku but it’s unlikely he’d be able to not say things like chuuya’s really strong even if he’s stupid and kind of . compliments that honestly it’s only strategically sound tht if chuuya isnt with the mafia and wouldn’t return to the mafia — dazai probably firmly was just like nah chuuya would never come back lol — then he should be removed. and it’s not like dazai didnt know lol so after the torture thing it took him a bit to pull together his resources and then he murdered mori and didn’t at all try to lie about it, it was a clear message that ppl dont fuck with him.
if he could at all help it dazai wouldn’t tell chuuya tho mori being dead really opens a wholec an of worms abt chuuya being tortured and also mori and dazai’s relationship, really, so. . .
Did chuuya have any idea about dazai and mori’s. special relationship?
He probably figured out a lot as he got older. Not when they were sixteen,
no. but i'm sure he eventually wanted to know where the scars came from and
he had a much better context to be like 'no that is wrong???' given the
life he ended up in. he probably ended up with a much uhhhhh more 'woke'
perspective than i usually play him. WHICH IS STILL NOT. THAT MUCH. but
like he is at least pretty solid on 'actually using children to kill people
and run criminal organizations is wrong'. which is. more than Mafia!Chuuya
really believes.
CSA is also bad but something talked about less and thus he has less of an
understanding of it other than' #feelsbadman and he's Chuuya who ended up
on the side of the government but also pretty clearly Dazai. like, it was
probably very evident early on that he would stop Dazai's crime but he was
not going to take Dazai to jail or otherwise seriously harm him. They were
never 'really enemies' and Chuuya was probably always quite clear about
that in his own way, but it helps that he probably had the same excuse of
like, the goverment DOES... allow and support the Port Mafia in the way. So
there is a gray area there that is actually important and ullltimately it's
okay that Dazai occupies it and BETTER someone like Dazai than someone like
Mori.
anyway he defffo hated Mori but uhhh less personally since he only knew him
for a year or so.
How did the time Dazai cut himself off from Chuuya go/why did he stop doing
that
Dazai threw himself into the mafia! he was a good little mafia tool and Mori’s pet prodigy! But he started to feel like he was literally breaking apart and for a while he just did it but because. . . when they were younger it was like ‘you can just leave’ he kind of tempered that and was like ‘well i could just visit’
How did chuuya feel abt dazai disappearing and then showing up every like now and then just to be a dick,
at first like. you know. real betrayed and hurt and mad and wow i so don't
care who was kind of in love with you anyway!! he probably started to
rebound onto Ango a bit which i mean DID work out for him so whatever. im
sure many of those dates did not go as Dazai wanted, probably particularly
while Mori was still in charge. but eventually it became more routine and
he... wOULD RATHER JUST. GO ON A NORMAL DATE??? but he does like seeing
Dazai.
why won't you just ask him out on a normal date, dazai
hm. FAIRLY OFTEN but probably more casually mafia boss and he honestly
probably calls chuuya a lot to just talk and you know whatever bc oda is
dead and he's lonely and loves chuuya.
DAZAI CAN PROBABLY BEHAVE HIMSELF FOR A DATE IF CHUUYA ASKS AND HE ACTUALLY
AGREES TO IT but probably the real issue is getting him to agree to go on a
date in explicit 'yes this is a date' terms.
are there any relationship updates for aries and haruto
hE CARES A LOT ABOUT HAURTO and is starting to kind of think of him as his boyfriend, mostly due to how he's now had to talk about haurto to other people like wire and whisky and that starts to necessitate labels he would probably otherwise not think about. he cares about and worries about Haruto a lot but also gets kind of tired of Haruto's obvious flaws like being avoidant and a drunk and generally Aries is really hard to bother BUT he has specific weak points and feeling unappreciated/not valued is definitely one of them. so 'haha i need to drink before i can be with you' is a #feelsbad, but also he thinks Haruto is pretty delicate and as the stronger person it's probably his duty to just suck up a lot of shit and help Haruto out.
It means a lot to him actually that Haruto sincerely wants him to be the leader, he felt at first like it was teasing or making fun of him and then like it was just handing off responsibility to him that didn't even need to exist, because he thinks they are fine without a leader, but the fact that Haruto actually pulled back when Aries started talking about refusing to be the leader made him realize it's actually a thing that has value so he can take it more seriously
he wishes he could remember nice things because most of their memories are of them fighting, which he isn't bothered by because it feels like 'a fight with a friend a long time ago' but he doesn't really have any information to contextualize how their relationship actually has been. he's not worried they aren't really friends, but it's info he would like to have and it kind of annoys him he doesn't get it.
oVERALL HE'S VERY POSITIVE ON HARUTO, just periodically tired of his shit, but also working really hard to figure out how to be helpful and supportive.
Mostly he thinks of future is now as uh... A category that certain types
end up in, though it's not a completely established rule set. But basically
people who aren't too sentimental and have a lot of potential for putting
aside morality, but not out of maliciousness. But Angel only sort of counts
and he doesn't really know their... Four new members that well lol
Individually he honestly likes angel, is pretty ok with sho and infinity,
and likes intensity in tsundere way that he completely is in denial about.
Bell is promising and he hopes he can take her eyes out for science sometime
How does angel understand team vs the people outside the team that she also
cares about
Just picturing taking Bell's eyeballs literally like "I'm borrowing these now thanks".
In some ways, she sees her unit as her new "court"! It's still a development because so many people are new, and she has to get to know them better by experience death together, but they just automatically get that role in her mind! Like there are many people outside of team she loves a lot, probably with more attachment than some of the new teammates tbh (like B more than Magilou just because of the amount of time spent together at this point), but since the FiN unit is "hers" in her brain, it's always most important to prioritize them in any situation where there is no other choice in the matter.
So ya, she kind of has an understand about team vs everyone else, but she doesn't see it as her unit vs people outside so much as "these are mine" vs "those ppl are not mine but I love them very dearly". Rulers, u know. Oh, Except Bark on WC. That one IS hers and WC is just allowed to share.
Oh also, it is also a trust situation though because she is hoping the other teams would do the same thing with their own unit! That's about the extent of how much she cares about units as a whole though lol. What's a unit, idc, she doesn't really think about things like "units" or "unit politics" or whatever, can she eat those. She better understands a bunch of individuals that make up a group vs the shared community mentality.
ARE THERE ANY PARTICULAR DIFFICULTIES PLAYING THE CHARACTERS YOU PLAY!!
Three is mostly hard because he resists developing a cr net deliberately.
So in turn he becomes hard to get out in comparison to Aries, who at least
has people he cares about around and about all the time. He's also the type
to keep his thoughts to himself so he's not easy to jump people with, and
he didn't care if he's misunderstood so he doesn't explain himself unless
people ask specific things in a specific way. Basically he's a butt I wish
he had more work to do that had meaning but sadly. I'm working on it.
Aries uh. Is boring and shallow in a lot of ways, and he also is so team
focused he kind of resists cr nets off his team, but he's mostly just not
good at basic conversation lol. So unless there is a goal he's not good at
taking to people.
I really really want to but basically as something to balance out Angel’s everything lol. But because she has CR with nearly everybody, I need to app someone like...Kei...so they can be lazy and not get super involved with anything ever. Just be a flop. And that way angel’s CR won’t sufferrrr.
Look sometimes ... fe elings are h..ard...to understand... or it’s easier to i...gnore them...
She isn’t incapable but sometimes your focus is just “this is important to me and i’ll kill anyone who touches a single hair on their head” and then that gets tied in with romantic feelings of the maybe slightly healthier kind but then it becomes very hard to tell the difference.
It’s a wip. She has books.
Any particular thing you are looking forward to with Three like memories or certain character personality traits/character arcs etc?
im looking forward to him getting practical about the fact that he has an
obscenely high pain tolerance because he will probably get smeone on
sensitiv he can work with to reattach his bodyparts and just like. make
himself a cyborg. out of boredom.
has angel done any cool things with her powers yet.
She has like one ability and just lets it bounce around with Intensity's face. Soooo nnnot yet. However she is considering just max purchasing the rest of them in one go (and she has enough points for that). She just doesn't care about them that much.
Does Three have any "friends" outside of FiN? ...as close to friends as he could have I guess.
no... IN HIS LAST MEMORY HE REMEMBERED WHAT A 'FRIEND' IS AND ALSO WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO 'LIKE' SOMEONE. but i haven't been good at off team CR sweats.
If Aries WAS able to get his abilities back, what would that change? Would it change how he plays in games or anything like that? What would the mental/emotional change be?
oh god it would change everything lol. he'S SO HANDICAPPED FROM BEING HIMSELF BY NOT HAVING UNLIMITED COSMIC POWER. canon is. not well written, but it consistent abou the fact that Chuuya is insanely powerful and utterly unapologetic about using it to protect the people he cares about, he doesn't really give a fuck that they are far weaker than him, personally, because the people he's protecting are normal weak people also in need of protection and he will wipe out dozens of people at a go if that's what he needs to do.
if Aries still had his powers probably in like the first week he jsut would've been like if any of you fuck with a single hair of anyone on my team i will slaughter your entire team.
I imagine it would've gone over poorly.
If he got his powers back NOW. he'd......... still probably end up saying that at some point. but he is invested in not traumatising silver so he'd probably still play games fairly similarly but it's just like. if they DID get betrayed, instead of like. trying to stratetically navigate that, he'd show upa t their door and put the terror of a chaos god into their hearts and then make it public that this would happen to anyone who fucked with them.
THIS IS WHY ARIES SAYS HE'S NOT A NICE PERSON.
if silver could swap out one member of WC for one person on any other team, would he, and who
He wouldn't really swap out anyone.... He WOULD want to drag Gold onto Wild City. He'd ask Gold first, of course. Because if Gold really wanted to stay on Avante...he would respect it. Gold being on Wild City would change a lot of things for Silver. Not being able to see Gold during games and know what's happening to him causes him a lot of anxiety during games and honestly makes it hard for him to think at full capacity because he's ALWAYS DISTRACTED. Wild City is hard for him because he is VERY aware how differently he wants to play from everyone else. He cares about and is attached to his team though even if games are always a struggle for him. He cares about everyone even if he has trouble understanding Haruto and Whisky. A part of him would swap himself out...that way people could play how they want to play without him being in the way...but he doesn't really WANT to be on any of the other teams...and then he wouldn't be on Wild City to help protect Wild City. He disagrees with play strategies, but he doesn't have any issues with any of the people on Wild City. And in fact he gets angry when people laugh when he tries to explain that the people on Wild City are good. Games make it hard to prove his point because people aren't in the rooms....Whisky and Haruto please stop mean girling Loki orz
Does Aries have any opinions on any of the other teams besides Wild City? If he was forced off Wild City by the producers, what team would he join and how would he play?
Uhhh that would be hard, because he isn't good at that kind of loyalty
shift and it would be really rough for him. he would probably initially
choose based on whose abilities he liked best lol, so Avante would be a
strong running even tho he doesn't get along with Cardigan. he might do HSS
because he likes Wire, but he doesn't like Hiryuu, and he doesn't know
about their abilities. he would probably have to shop around?? because he
in the end he would want ot kepe his loyalty to WC and just like. help them
from another team lol. it'S REALLY HARD FOR HIM TO SHIFT LOYALTIES so he
might just want to join a team that wouldn't expect his loyalty.
so does silver have any hormones yet and if so for who
Silver...has hormones. However, he actually probably has less hormones than Gold, because he's even MORE hyper focused on volleyball, but has a better awareness of them? Like...he watches Gold interact with B and it makes him want to beat his head against a wall because Gold DOES NOT REALIZE that Gold has a crush on B. That said, Silver is very aware there is an oddly high amount of attractive people in Imeeji. There are plenty of people he looks at and knows they're hot or attractive, but that's easy to ignore by running or stretching or practicing. He works hard to appear likable in Imeeji so people will like him enough to not bus WC, but... He doesn't actually care if other people like him, outside of strategic purposes. And it takes a LOT to get him interested in someone else. For him to have a hormone he'd care about acting on it would definitely take someone interesting him first personality wise because otherwise he just doesn't give enough of a shit. Why waste time fucking when you could spend that time on volleyball practice? Silver is lazy if something doesn't interest him and that includes hormones. He's not a prude or a pure maiden or anything, he's just lazy/doesn't care.
ARIES ADORES SILVER.The smol pure heart of their team, though he actually doesn't care muuuch about Silver's age. He's aware of it in a 'I'm dealing with a highschooler' sense, but he doesn't really think highschoolers are limited by much so that is kind of whatever. he's much more the smol because he's so delicate about murder. which is an ok quality to have.
FIGHTING WITH SILVER FELT BAD AND HE DIDN'T LIKE IT but he is glad they resolved it and has some lingering bad feelings but oh well he'll just deal with it. he worries about the inevitable day when Silver will need to bloody his hands, but he thinks Silver is a capable guy who will come through it okay. He relies on Silver a lot to be someone he can talk to honestly who will... basically understand. feelings. and basic human conversation since Whisky and Haruto are both like /sweats. And so far of their knew kids, only Bark really qualifies as 'normal' in Aries' book.
anyway basically he thinks silver is the best. woudl do so much murder for him. or nonmurder, if that's what it takes.
The adoration is very mutual. Silver respects Aries so much and really truly views him as the only one capable of being leader for Wild City. He appreciates that even though Aries is so strong and strongly opinionated that he's still willing to listen and bend to the rest of the team. The fact that Aries seems to sincerely care too is mind blowing. Much kind, very strong, so cool, our leader is A+++ and Silver will beat the ass of anyone who tries to talk shit about Aries infront of him.
Silver is hyper aware that he's kind of the odd man out on Wild City...but Aries never makes him feel bad about it. Silver knows he's younger, softer, more trusting and not as cut-throat...but Aries still helps make him feel like he's not holding back the team. Which in turn drives Silver to try and be better.
It's funny because Aries has basically the same relationship as Silver's captain back home. Silver doesn't remember Kita yet and even if he did, he wouldn't try to compare them because Kita is Kita and Aries and Aries. But essentially they're both leaders that Silver respects and cares about (which says a lot because lol doesn't care what anyone thinks) who in turn care about Silver enough to call him out on stupid shit he does. In canon, Kita scolds Silver in front of the whole team for not taking proper care of himself by pushing too hard when he's sick and prioritizing volleyball over his self. Annnnd then proceeds to scold the rest of the team for praising Silver for that kind of stupidity.
Aries is a very stable force in Silver's life and he absolutely HATED fighting with him. The game in general was awful because Haruto called him a child which made Aries pulling the leader card feel that much more like he was being scolded. Plus being compared to Haruto instead of being seen as himself was like a punch in the gut. Ultimately that game made him feel like he was being treated like a child which is something he's been fighting very hard against. He wants to be on the same footing as the rest of the team because they ARE all adults.
He hated fighting with Aries and he's internally worried that Aries views him differently now...that it wasn't just their pr with the other teams that was ruined, but also his pr within his own team.
Silver doesn't sincerely care what other people think about him, except for a few people: Gold, Wild City and the tinies. In canon he's been in volleyball programs for gifted players since he was SUPER SMALL. And so he never really cared what people thought about HIM as a person before. So he doesn't really know how to process it now... He's used to being hated even by his own team back home. So caring and things related to it are very much so a learning process for him right now.
He wants to be a little clingy so he can re-stabilize himself and ensure Aries isn't mad at him...but he's not used to being physically affectionate. So he'll probably settle for lots of little touches until he decides Aries ISN'T mad at him. Please prepare for lots of small face, hair, shoulder etc pats.
BASICALLY? ARIES IS THE BEST, SORRY FOR SUCKING BOSS PLEASE DON'T HATE ME I'M WORKING ON IT. Also apologies in advance for the fact the sound of a volleyball bouncing against the wall all night long is probably going to keep the unit up because that's what he does to help himself zone out and process.
Does Aries have any nervous habits or guilty pleasures?
I'm so glad since that's also how Aries feels. Oh no I hope I haven't
lowered silvers opinion of me. I must try hard to be an even better boss.
Aries' guilty pleasure is Haruto. He knows haruto is bad at a lot of things
and doesn't have a lot of strong positives going for him but Aries cares
sooooooo much about what haruto thinks and finds being able to support him
or get his attention super validating. This is kind of pathetic, though,
for a lot of reasons, and he can't really explain it..
Nervous habits, he gets kinda tsundere sometimes if he's anxious, and if
he's fussed he'll exercise a lot. He used to be able to okay around with
his gravity but he can't now.
Silver might have a crush. He runs in the morning and evenings and then in the afternoon he works out and practices...so he doesn't think too much about it. That is to say, he keeps busy. Pr, working out, people watching, etc. He spends more time thinking about Gold's crush on B because honestly he needs to help those two if they're ever going to get together.
What kind of sleeper is Aries? Does he sleep the whole night through or just naps? Does he actually sleep in his room or just crashes in the dorm living room? Side sleeper or back or front? Does he snore or anything? Early to bed early to rise or burns the candle at both ends? Etc.
He sleeps pretty soundly overall but he is a light sleeper in the sense
that like, it's hard to sneak up on him. But he doens't have nightmares and
he can get to sleep and wake up pretty regularly and easily. He tends to
burn the candles on both ends if he needs to, but he cares a lot about his
physical health and so generally tries to get enough sleep and he likes to
wake up early to exercise. So if he doesn't have other responsibilities
he'll probably like go to bed at 10 and be up at 5 or 5:30 or so. but he
can definitely just not sleep for a couple of days he has a lot of energy.
wHY ARE NOT TELLING ME WHO SILVER HAS A CRUSH ON!!
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eXTREMELY BAD????
it's interesting because uhhhhh Aries has a very different perspective on suicide than Chuuya does in a lot of ways. because he hasn't seen it first hand and his personal experiences with haruto are honestly all pretty sympathetic. Chuuya took a LONG TIME if he EVER learned that Dazai was scared of things, whereas Aries has basically figured out that Haruto is twitchy and nervous, even if he hasn't grasped the full extent of it.
Haruto very cleanly falls into 'a weaker person I want to protect' category but like. he's not sure how to protect someone from themselves (tho u can bet he's instantly starting to think about it) and he doesn't have aaaaaa idealistic view of life suggests no one should die/suicide isn't legit but he still deffo doesn't really understand it beyond 'yeah i mean i guess I don't have enough self worth to make a strong argument for why life is fundementally better than death if you don't enjoy being alive and you aren't loyal to anything' so it's really just a strong selfish impulse to not lose something important to him.
how does haruto feel about trying to die
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HE… is just like yeah that seems right. In imeeji he’s been depressed / unhappy feeling even though ‘nothing bad’ happened. He’s felt that schism in himself, that void, that inability to really understand people and that. well. terror. existential terror. anxiety terror. fear and scared and so forth and so on.
So. Of course.
HOW DOES ARIES FEEL ABT THE SEX, or the idea of sex with haruto or the lying during sex or
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hE FELT SUPER BAD ABOUT THE FIRST SEX but he also kind of got over it tho he will have a residual paranoia about haruto not getting off for a while probably
second sex is going well and he feels positive. if he is given the opportunity to handle something and improve he gets over it and forgives it really genuinely so the fact that they had a rough patch doesn't matter to him much.
anwyay overall he feels positive and enjoys feeling sex out with haruto and also feels a little awk about how awk he feels about what probably shouldn't be so awk except that he cna't remember it ever not being awk
how does haruto feel about wanting to be topped by aries
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he has no idea why he's like this
IT DOES MAKE HIM UNCOMFORTABLE BC IT'S GIVING UP CONTROL AND HE'S LIKE AH AHA HA AH nnnaaahhhh but also like. in their 'canon' he trusts Chuuya. Part of why he's gotten further too is bc of how the AU went differently and while he cant even call his boyfriend for a date he does trust him.
so this is like HE DOESNT TRUST ARIES but the only way to gain trust is to keep trying things where he doesnt trust and they dont turn out bad tbh lol
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he likes it
but he feels unsafe and is unsure how to navigate his own wants and desires and fingerguns
how do you think aries would feel abt feeling haruto's emotions
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immmmmmmmm not sure. I have been thinking about it a lot but i don't think he'd like... mind..... CHUUYA has a lot of expectations of people in action and he does expect a certain shared under standing but not so much with 'you must be X type of person'. He expects like an understanding of loyalty but not necessarily loyalty to HIM or something. So his default is pretty low with expectations, and Aries' are even lower because he has noticed and HEARD that like. Haruto and Whisky don't understand or care about team and he's started to wonder if he isn't the weird one. as a result.
So he doesn't have this idea of 'what an unbroken person' is or 'how people should be'. he mostly thinks relationships have very important guidelines and it bothers him when they aren't understood. but it doesn't really bother him if like. you aren't nice or you don't have empathy or whatever. he'd probably find Haruto hating himself troubling but difficult to understand. overall I don't think he'd really judge and he doesn't have really anything to base expectations on other than himself but he already knows he and Haruto are different so...? ? ?
tldr he's been around 'broken' people his entire life and has never seen anything really THAT wrong with it (and he's definitely also broke in his own way so lol)
does haruto want to emotion bond with aries at all
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no
TELL ME SOME RANDOM SHIT ABT THIS AU CHUUYA
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GIVE ME A BETTER ANSWER THAN NO
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he doesnt want to bond with aries bc he's afraid of rejection and aries not liking that he's 'broken' but he's also afraid of what he might see in aries's feelings
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it's cute
SAME 2 U
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dazai still self-harms and tries to kill himself on and off but it's way less than our other au and sometimes instead he just does crime , so it's fine dazai mostly dresses in suits but he has some casual clothes which are funny bc he just isn't sure how to dress so there's like always some mismatchedness to it bc he isnt sure how expensive or cheap he should be when not wearing a suit dazai's better at fighting than he is in canon / our other au but he still basically is like. mediocre at best. he likes... frapps.... from sbux,,
how... does chuuya feel abt their crime dates,,,
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At first he was real annoyed about it, and also weirdly flattered. But after a few years he's chilled out and goes along with it and has fun. I imagine he uhhh... sort of unofficially is a mafia liaison, and thus gets some leeway in how he deals with them. He probably really does seriously try to limit HOW bad Dazai is, but then ther eis the question of how much of that is Dazai setting up a game for Chuuya to win, and Chuuya probably doesn't know the answer to that question tbqh.
But overall fIRST HE WAS OFFENDED but i imagine as Dazai has gotten better, the whole thing has gotten better and he does love him so???
hOW DOES HARUTO FEEL ABOUT WHAT JUST HAPPENED WITH WHISKEY
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The triple thingy actually works in our AU where the mafia and government and ada checks and balances and help make the city a better place ,
Ihhhhh overall he’s ok with it. He mostly keptcontrol and in general found out some about how far whisky will go. He feels it was profitable and while whisky got a moment of ‘winning’ he considers it pretty negligible over all. It was a feelsbad but everything has a feelsbad side to it so shrug whatever
... how... would Aries feel ... if he knew .,,, abt whisky and harutobeing themselves
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mostly confused and probably upset. he doesn't really have a good handle on like... why... or how... they are themselves... he knows it's 'bad' but would have a hard time articulating his bad feels about it. he'd rather haruto not have sex he doesn't like, but couldn't say why that is important. But this is a version of Chuuya who hasn't had a lot of bad sex, so without the years of him and dazai bad decision abusing each other it's just like 'ACTUALLY . I DISLIKE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS' in regards to. dazai's bad decision sex.
he'd also just be even more distressed about how maybe team has no real meaning and he's wrong
how is haruto feeling about aries overall now
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Aries is his most important person hands down. He’s trying his best?? But feels like it isn’t enough and also even though Aries is like you being broken whatever don’t listen to hiryuu he views Aries as like ... naive. And someone to be protected. His pure adorable sheep who believes in ideals that don’t exist. As he gains more memories abt Chuuya that prolly won’t change. He probably has a certain amount of that feeling in their au too — bc Chuuya can be good and workdor the government (even tho Dazai hates them bc they let odasaku die , ) and Dazai himself does the dirty work in the mafia.
Would Aries like a literal octopus give him a hand job
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I'm
Maybe. If they were otherwise. Further along. Right not they can't even get thru a blow job
Would haruto do it
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he would find it funny
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how did chuuya feel abt the whole mori thing in their au, yanno, the getting tortured and all,
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I assume what happened is that Mori basically sold Chuuya out to someone who genuinely wanted revenge for someone Chuuya killed back when and technically Mori was in no way connected, it was just a personal vendetta which is why Chuuya was tortured but not for information he wouldn't have since he's really just a college student.
So he felt bad because torture was bad bad but it probably took a while to find out it was Mori, i imagine not until after dazai resolved it so it kind of depends on what went on there
So what went on there
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i hadn’t really thought about it much but now im just like, after odasaku died and dazai went back to the mafia he probably cut contact with chuuya for a while but then started popping up in his life again and honestly, spent far more time with him than he should have considering. the port mafia’s demon prodigy hanging out with chuuya at college, colluding with the enemy and all and probably he couldn’t keep his mouth shut. he wasn’t the same kind of lovey dovey as he was with odasaku but it’s unlikely he’d be able to not say things like chuuya’s really strong even if he’s stupid and kind of . compliments that honestly it’s only strategically sound tht if chuuya isnt with the mafia and wouldn’t return to the mafia — dazai probably firmly was just like nah chuuya would never come back lol — then he should be removed. and it’s not like dazai didnt know lol so after the torture thing it took him a bit to pull together his resources and then he murdered mori and didn’t at all try to lie about it, it was a clear message that ppl dont fuck with him.
if he could at all help it dazai wouldn’t tell chuuya tho mori being dead really opens a wholec an of worms abt chuuya being tortured and also mori and dazai’s relationship, really, so. . .
Did chuuya have any idea about dazai and mori’s. special relationship?
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He probably figured out a lot as he got older. Not when they were sixteen, no. but i'm sure he eventually wanted to know where the scars came from and he had a much better context to be like 'no that is wrong???' given the life he ended up in. he probably ended up with a much uhhhhh more 'woke' perspective than i usually play him. WHICH IS STILL NOT. THAT MUCH. but like he is at least pretty solid on 'actually using children to kill people and run criminal organizations is wrong'. which is. more than Mafia!Chuuya really believes.
CSA is also bad but something talked about less and thus he has less of an understanding of it other than' #feelsbadman and he's Chuuya who ended up on the side of the government but also pretty clearly Dazai. like, it was probably very evident early on that he would stop Dazai's crime but he was not going to take Dazai to jail or otherwise seriously harm him. They were never 'really enemies' and Chuuya was probably always quite clear about that in his own way, but it helps that he probably had the same excuse of like, the goverment DOES... allow and support the Port Mafia in the way. So there is a gray area there that is actually important and ullltimately it's okay that Dazai occupies it and BETTER someone like Dazai than someone like Mori.
anyway he defffo hated Mori but uhhh less personally since he only knew him for a year or so.
How did the time Dazai cut himself off from Chuuya go/why did he stop doing that
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Dazai threw himself into the mafia! he was a good little mafia tool and Mori’s pet prodigy! But he started to feel like he was literally breaking apart and for a while he just did it but because. . . when they were younger it was like ‘you can just leave’ he kind of tempered that and was like ‘well i could just visit’
How did chuuya feel abt dazai disappearing and then showing up every like now and then just to be a dick,
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at first like. you know. real betrayed and hurt and mad and wow i so don't care who was kind of in love with you anyway!! he probably started to rebound onto Ango a bit which i mean DID work out for him so whatever. im sure many of those dates did not go as Dazai wanted, probably particularly while Mori was still in charge. but eventually it became more routine and he... wOULD RATHER JUST. GO ON A NORMAL DATE??? but he does like seeing Dazai.
why won't you just ask him out on a normal date, dazai
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what if chuuya turns him down or has something else to do or a scheduling conflict??????????
does chuuya ask dazai out on dates,
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wow it hasn't actually been a month it feels like a month.
he probably asked Dazai out on exactly one date and depending on how that went it either kept happening or never again
i guess the question is how often does dazai put his foot in his mouth and fuck up a good thing in this au
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hm. FAIRLY OFTEN but probably more casually mafia boss and he honestly probably calls chuuya a lot to just talk and you know whatever bc oda is dead and he's lonely and loves chuuya.
DAZAI CAN PROBABLY BEHAVE HIMSELF FOR A DATE IF CHUUYA ASKS AND HE ACTUALLY AGREES TO IT but probably the real issue is getting him to agree to go on a date in explicit 'yes this is a date' terms.
are there any relationship updates for aries and haruto
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hE CARES A LOT ABOUT HAURTO and is starting to kind of think of him as his boyfriend, mostly due to how he's now had to talk about haurto to other people like wire and whisky and that starts to necessitate labels he would probably otherwise not think about. he cares about and worries about Haruto a lot but also gets kind of tired of Haruto's obvious flaws like being avoidant and a drunk and generally Aries is really hard to bother BUT he has specific weak points and feeling unappreciated/not valued is definitely one of them. so 'haha i need to drink before i can be with you' is a #feelsbad, but also he thinks Haruto is pretty delicate and as the stronger person it's probably his duty to just suck up a lot of shit and help Haruto out.
It means a lot to him actually that Haruto sincerely wants him to be the leader, he felt at first like it was teasing or making fun of him and then like it was just handing off responsibility to him that didn't even need to exist, because he thinks they are fine without a leader, but the fact that Haruto actually pulled back when Aries started talking about refusing to be the leader made him realize it's actually a thing that has value so he can take it more seriously
he wishes he could remember nice things because most of their memories are of them fighting, which he isn't bothered by because it feels like 'a fight with a friend a long time ago' but he doesn't really have any information to contextualize how their relationship actually has been. he's not worried they aren't really friends, but it's info he would like to have and it kind of annoys him he doesn't get it.
oVERALL HE'S VERY POSITIVE ON HARUTO, just periodically tired of his shit, but also working really hard to figure out how to be helpful and supportive.
SAME BACK AT U
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Mostly he thinks of future is now as uh... A category that certain types end up in, though it's not a completely established rule set. But basically people who aren't too sentimental and have a lot of potential for putting aside morality, but not out of maliciousness. But Angel only sort of counts and he doesn't really know their... Four new members that well lol
Individually he honestly likes angel, is pretty ok with sho and infinity, and likes intensity in tsundere way that he completely is in denial about. Bell is promising and he hopes he can take her eyes out for science sometime
How does angel understand team vs the people outside the team that she also cares about
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In some ways, she sees her unit as her new "court"! It's still a development because so many people are new, and she has to get to know them better
by experience death together, but they just automatically get that role in her mind! Like there are many people outside of team she loves a lot, probably with more attachment than some of the new teammates tbh (like B more than Magilou just because of the amount of time spent together at this point), but since the FiN unit is "hers" in her brain, it's always most important to prioritize them in any situation where there is no other choice in the matter.So ya, she kind of has an understand about team vs everyone else, but she doesn't see it as her unit vs people outside so much as "these are mine" vs "those ppl are not mine but I love them very dearly". Rulers, u know. Oh, Except Bark on WC. That one IS hers and WC is just allowed to share.
Oh also, it is also a trust situation though because she is hoping the other teams would do the same thing with their own unit! That's about the extent of how much she cares about units as a whole though lol. What's a unit, idc, she doesn't really think about things like "units" or "unit politics" or whatever, can she eat those. She better understands a bunch of individuals that make up a group vs the shared community mentality.
ARE THERE ANY PARTICULAR DIFFICULTIES PLAYING THE CHARACTERS YOU PLAY!!
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Three is mostly hard because he resists developing a cr net deliberately. So in turn he becomes hard to get out in comparison to Aries, who at least has people he cares about around and about all the time. He's also the type to keep his thoughts to himself so he's not easy to jump people with, and he didn't care if he's misunderstood so he doesn't explain himself unless people ask specific things in a specific way. Basically he's a butt I wish he had more work to do that had meaning but sadly. I'm working on it.
Aries uh. Is boring and shallow in a lot of ways, and he also is so team focused he kind of resists cr nets off his team, but he's mostly just not good at basic conversation lol. So unless there is a goal he's not good at taking to people.
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What team would your cat go on
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celi read ajin please and app my boyfriend im dying (selfishly i say, knowing im not nearly active enoughw ith kei. bUT LOOK)
my cat as in dazai?? Uh... Wild City... because. that is also where Dazai is. and she is very much like her namesake...
How is Angel doing with romansu
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Look sometimes ... fe elings are h..ard...to understand... or it’s easier to i...gnore them...
She isn’t incapable but sometimes your focus is just “this is important to me and i’ll kill anyone who touches a single hair on their head” and then that gets tied in with romantic feelings of the maybe slightly healthier kind but then it becomes very hard to tell the difference.
It’s a wip. She has books.
Any particular thing you are looking forward to with Three like memories or certain character personality traits/character arcs etc?
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im looking forward to him getting practical about the fact that he has an obscenely high pain tolerance because he will probably get smeone on sensitiv he can work with to reattach his bodyparts and just like. make himself a cyborg. out of boredom.
has angel done any cool things with her powers yet.
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Does Three have any "friends" outside of FiN? ...as close to friends as he could have I guess.
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What does angel think of her recent bad memory?
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if Aries still had his powers probably in like the first week he jsut would've been like if any of you fuck with a single hair of anyone on my team i will slaughter your entire team.
I imagine it would've gone over poorly.
If he got his powers back NOW. he'd......... still probably end up saying that at some point. but he is invested in not traumatising silver so he'd probably still play games fairly similarly but it's just like. if they DID get betrayed, instead of like. trying to stratetically navigate that, he'd show upa t their door and put the terror of a chaos god into their hearts and then make it public that this would happen to anyone who fucked with them.
THIS IS WHY ARIES SAYS HE'S NOT A NICE PERSON.
if silver could swap out one member of WC for one person on any other team, would he, and who
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Does Aries have any opinions on any of the other teams besides Wild City? If he was forced off Wild City by the producers, what team would he join and how would he play?
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Uhhh that would be hard, because he isn't good at that kind of loyalty shift and it would be really rough for him. he would probably initially choose based on whose abilities he liked best lol, so Avante would be a strong running even tho he doesn't get along with Cardigan. he might do HSS because he likes Wire, but he doesn't like Hiryuu, and he doesn't know about their abilities. he would probably have to shop around?? because he in the end he would want ot kepe his loyalty to WC and just like. help them from another team lol. it'S REALLY HARD FOR HIM TO SHIFT LOYALTIES so he might just want to join a team that wouldn't expect his loyalty.
so does silver have any hormones yet and if so for who
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CR me?
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FIGHTING WITH SILVER FELT BAD AND HE DIDN'T LIKE IT but he is glad they resolved it and has some lingering bad feelings but oh well he'll just deal with it. he worries about the inevitable day when Silver will need to bloody his hands, but he thinks Silver is a capable guy who will come through it okay. He relies on Silver a lot to be someone he can talk to honestly who will... basically understand. feelings. and basic human conversation since Whisky and Haruto are both like /sweats. And so far of their knew kids, only Bark really qualifies as 'normal' in Aries' book.
anyway basically he thinks silver is the best. woudl do so much murder for him. or nonmurder, if that's what it takes.
REVERSE
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Silver is hyper aware that he's kind of the odd man out on Wild City...but Aries never makes him feel bad about it. Silver knows he's younger, softer, more trusting and not as cut-throat...but Aries still helps make him feel like he's not holding back the team. Which in turn drives Silver to try and be better.
It's funny because Aries has basically the same relationship as Silver's captain back home. Silver doesn't remember Kita yet and even if he did, he wouldn't try to compare them because Kita is Kita and Aries and Aries. But essentially they're both leaders that Silver respects and cares about (which says a lot because lol doesn't care what anyone thinks) who in turn care about Silver enough to call him out on stupid shit he does. In canon, Kita scolds Silver in front of the whole team for not taking proper care of himself by pushing too hard when he's sick and prioritizing volleyball over his self. Annnnd then proceeds to scold the rest of the team for praising Silver for that kind of stupidity.
Aries is a very stable force in Silver's life and he absolutely HATED fighting with him. The game in general was awful because Haruto called him a child which made Aries pulling the leader card feel that much more like he was being scolded. Plus being compared to Haruto instead of being seen as himself was like a punch in the gut. Ultimately that game made him feel like he was being treated like a child which is something he's been fighting very hard against. He wants to be on the same footing as the rest of the team because they ARE all adults.
He hated fighting with Aries and he's internally worried that Aries views him differently now...that it wasn't just their pr with the other teams that was ruined, but also his pr within his own team.
Silver doesn't sincerely care what other people think about him, except for a few people: Gold, Wild City and the tinies. In canon he's been in volleyball programs for gifted players since he was SUPER SMALL. And so he never really cared what people thought about HIM as a person before. So he doesn't really know how to process it now... He's used to being hated even by his own team back home. So caring and things related to it are very much so a learning process for him right now.
He wants to be a little clingy so he can re-stabilize himself and ensure Aries isn't mad at him...but he's not used to being physically affectionate. So he'll probably settle for lots of little touches until he decides Aries ISN'T mad at him. Please prepare for lots of small face, hair, shoulder etc pats.
BASICALLY? ARIES IS THE BEST, SORRY FOR SUCKING BOSS PLEASE DON'T HATE ME I'M WORKING ON IT. Also apologies in advance for the fact the sound of a volleyball bouncing against the wall all night long is probably going to keep the unit up because that's what he does to help himself zone out and process.
Does Aries have any nervous habits or guilty pleasures?
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I'm so glad since that's also how Aries feels. Oh no I hope I haven't lowered silvers opinion of me. I must try hard to be an even better boss.
Aries' guilty pleasure is Haruto. He knows haruto is bad at a lot of things and doesn't have a lot of strong positives going for him but Aries cares sooooooo much about what haruto thinks and finds being able to support him or get his attention super validating. This is kind of pathetic, though, for a lot of reasons, and he can't really explain it..
Nervous habits, he gets kinda tsundere sometimes if he's anxious, and if he's fussed he'll exercise a lot. He used to be able to okay around with his gravity but he can't now.
So do you have any crushes, silver.
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What kind of sleeper is Aries? Does he sleep the whole night through or just naps? Does he actually sleep in his room or just crashes in the dorm living room? Side sleeper or back or front? Does he snore or anything? Early to bed early to rise or burns the candle at both ends? Etc.
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He sleeps pretty soundly overall but he is a light sleeper in the sense that like, it's hard to sneak up on him. But he doens't have nightmares and he can get to sleep and wake up pretty regularly and easily. He tends to burn the candles on both ends if he needs to, but he cares a lot about his physical health and so generally tries to get enough sleep and he likes to wake up early to exercise. So if he doesn't have other responsibilities he'll probably like go to bed at 10 and be up at 5 or 5:30 or so. but he can definitely just not sleep for a couple of days he has a lot of energy.
wHY ARE NOT TELLING ME WHO SILVER HAS A CRUSH ON!!
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Next five things Aries plans to spend points on?
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GIVE ME A NAME SILVER
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If Aries could pick any ability from any of the units which would he get?